Mormon to Muse

Faith deconstruction isn't a clean process. You're rebuilding a self while still going to work, parenting, managing a marriage and a household. There's no roadmap for it — you're improvising for the first time in a life...

<p>There's a particular kind of longing that shows up even when my life is good. Nothing is wrong. Nothing is happening. And still — something feels missing. A low hum of restlessness, the sense that I forgot something...

There's a particular kind of longing that shows up even when my life is good. Nothing is wrong. Nothing is happening. And still — something feels missing. A low hum of restlessness, the sense that I forgot something...

<p></p> <p >You know you don't have to do what everyone else wants anymore. So why is it still so hard to figure out what you want?</p> <p >If you left the Mormon church and you're still second-guessing every decision...

You know you don't have to do what everyone else wants anymore. So why is it still so hard to figure out what you want? If you left the Mormon church and you're still second-guessing every decision, still scanning for...

<p>I spent years experiencing my own aliveness as a problem to manage. I was a mother of young kids, restless out of my mind, bored without intellectual stimulation — and certain something was wrong with me for wanting...

<p>We don't usually realize it, but most of us are carrying an unwritten rulebook about how the people around us should behave so that we can feel okay. Brooke Castillo calls it a manual, and in this episode I unpack...

<p>If you're somewhere in your forties and it feels like everything is coming apart at the same time — your faith, your body, your sense of who you are — you're not broken. You're in the midlife trifecta: faith...

<p></p> <p >What if the system that claimed to be making you good was actually the thing standing in the way?</p> <p >In this episode we go deep on one of the most important distinctions for women rebuilding after...

<p>Download the 7 Day Reclamation Sketchbook</p> <p>There is a feeling you know very well. You felt it in sacrament meeting, reading scripture, bearing your testimony. It was warm. It was certain. It felt like coming...

<p>Episode 51: The Sinfulness of Selfhood: Why Differentiation Feels Dangerous After Mormonism</p> <p>There is a word the church uses for a woman who trusts her own mind over the institution. The word is proud. There is...

<p>It wasn't until I was in my thirties that I really understood what consent meant. I knew the word. I could have given you a definition. But the actual lived understanding of it — what it means to check in with...

<p>You've said it a hundred times. About what you want, who you are now, what comes next. I don't know. And it feels true — honest, even. But what if "I don't know" isn't always a fact? What if sometimes it's a thought...

<p>Mormonism didn't just teach you to feel shame. It built a system where being human was the problem — and the church was the only solution.</p> <p>In this episode, Kristin breaks down exactly how that system works...

<p>What do you do with your conscience when the institution that claimed to own it is gone? This episode is about one of the most disorienting parts of leaving — not the grief, not the social fallout, but the quiet...