The Queer Quest Podcast | Exploring Queer Healing and Transformation

I used to think there would be a number in my bank account where I'd finally feel safe. I've had savings. I've had more than $30,000 in credit card debt. I've spent five years paying it back. I've watched investments...

What happens when someone you love is going through a dark chapter — and their darkness starts landing on you? In this deeply personal episode, Christiano opens up about the complicated reality of loving someone through...

A night out at a gay club brought back memories of my twenties, the friends who shaped those years, and a version of myself I sometimes miss. But it also reminded me that I wouldn't give up the life I've created to go...

Eight years ago, I travelled alone to Peru and drank ayahuasca seven times over two weeks. I went there after reaching a breaking point. From the outside, my life looked successful. Underneath it, I was lonely, guarded...

What happens when you believe in something before there's any evidence that it's going to work? This week, I found myself deep inside one of the most intense creative periods I've experienced in years — creating around...

Why is it sometimes easier to completely stop than to simply find balance? After another intense reset — including an 84-hour water fast — I’m questioning my relationship with discipline, queer body image, indulgence...

I love having my family visit. I also really love when they leave. After having family stay in my home, I started questioning why the people we love can trigger us in ways almost nobody else can — and whether I...

I used to make my life sound more interesting, successful and desirable than it really was—not simply to impress people, but because I didn’t believe the real me was enough. In this deeply personal conversation, I...

What happens when your dreams stop inspiring you and start replacing your real life? In this deeply personal episode, I explore the difference between imagination, manifestation and escapism. For years I built elaborate...

I think I’m lonelier than I sometimes admit. It’s strange to say that when I have a partner I love, close friendships, a full life and people around me. But I’m beginning to realise that being alone and feeling lonely...

Have you ever looked back at your life and realised the same kind of person keeps showing up? For years, I believed I had a pattern of attracting controlling people. Different friendships. Different workplaces...

You don't need more confidence. You don't need another sign. You don't need permission. Sometimes the life you've been dreaming about begins with one small step taken before you feel ready. In this episode, I reflect on...

One of the hardest parts of changing your life isn't changing yourself. It's watching your relationships change with you. In this episode I reflect on giving up alcohol, leaving Australia, moving to Bali, losing...

Turning 40 wasn't the beginning of a midlife crisis. It was the beginning of finally becoming myself. In this first episode of Dear Christiano, I share why I stepped away from everything I had built, what burnout...

There were so many times I wished I could trade in my life for a different one. As a kid, I fantasized about being a world-class tennis player, a celebrity, a famous speaker — anything that would make me liked, adored...