DJ Shin's Podcast
Cosma REC_20260925. (The last performance for my father)
這是關於這個 Set 的故事。 幾天前，父親確認癌末。 原本計畫在我生日前、他開刀後的隔天， 拍一場 DJ 現場演出給他看。 結果，計畫生變。 於是提前了一週， 把我在 COSMA 週年慶的演出，送給爸爸。 這天的演出， 其實是我近幾場以來，自己最滿意的一次。 週六，我把錄影檔給他看。 雖然那時的他已經有些迷迷糊糊， 但第一次看到自己的孩子演出時， 他笑得很開心、很滿足，眼眶也紅了。 我問他： 「如何？怎樣？ 你兒子在這個圈子闖蕩這麼久了， 現在可以不用擔心我了。 累了，就好好休息，好嗎？」 爸爸點點頭 然後又昏睡了過去。 Janet Jackson 的〈Together Again〉， 是 Janet 寫給過世朋友的一首歌。 它像是在告訴自己，也告訴離開的人： 即使思念、即使難過， 還是要帶著微笑， 因為有一天，我們會再相見。 如同現在，也如同過去， 要堅強，也要勇敢。 寫給我的父親、 天上的母親， 以及未來的自己。 因為我相信， 未來的某一天， 我們會再開心地團聚。 謝謝 COSMA， 讓我有機會把這份禮物送給爸爸。 This is the story behind this set. A few days ago, my father was confirmed to be in the final stage of cancer. Originally, I had planned to film a live DJ set for him to watch the day after his surgery, just before my birthday. But things did not go as planned. So I moved it up by a week and dedicated my performance at COSMA’s anniversary to my dad. This set was actually one of the performances I have felt most satisfied with in quite some time. On Saturday, I showed him the recording. Although he was already drifting in and out of awareness, it was the first time he had ever seen his son perform. He smiled so happily, looking deeply content, and his eyes began to well up. I asked him, “How was it? Your son has been making his way in this scene for so many years. You don’t have to worry about me anymore. If you’re tired, just rest well, okay?” Dad nodded. Then he slowly drifted back to sleep. Janet Jackson’s “Together Again” was written for a friend of hers who had passed away. To me, the song feels like a message both to yourself and to the people you have lost: Even through the sadness and the longing, keep smiling, because one day, we will meet again. Just as in the past, and just as now, we have to stay strong and be brave. This is for my father, for my mother in heaven, and for the future me. Because I believe that one day, somewhere in the future, we will all be together again, happy and smiling. Thank you, COSMA, for giving me the chance to send this gift to my dad.
